I made myself so many promises. Today would be the day. Next Monday would be the day. I will start my diet at the beginning of next month… Over and over again I tried losing weight. Sometimes I would stick with a new fad diet for 6 weeks, sometimes only 6 days– okay fine, sometimes even as little as 6 hours. I would successfully lose weight while I followed [insert name of every diet], only to have the same ultimate outcome: I would gain it all back in a matter of time and sometimes I would gain back even more than I lost. This was my story with weight through most of my 30’s.
Fast forward to December 31, 2015: I am 38 years old and I am the heaviest I have ever been. Not only do none of my clothes fit, (seriously none), but I am so heavy that I feel disgusting and wonder how I ever let this happen. I have been fortunate in the past to not associate my self-worth with my physical appearance, but now even that strength is bending under all this weight. I visited Excuse Central and tried to make sense of how this happened. I injured myself, I am stressed, I am so busy…. anything to take the blame off of me. I even wished that I had something wrong with me to cause the weight gain. Can you imagine? I actually wished that I was ill! When the simple truth is that I was to blame. I was the reason this happened and the only way to fix it was for me to finally take action to correct it.
I decided starting January 1, 2016 that I was going to try a different approach and of course, I was going to be skinny by summer! I was going to eliminate excess sugar and watch calories. I stopped adding sugar to my coffee and I replaced regular soda with soda using a sugar substitute. I didn’t eliminate any foods. If I wanted pizza or cake or pasta, I had it, (provided I had room for the calories.) It seemed to be working. I lost approximately 5 pounds but unfortunately very quickly hit a plateau. So next I decided to eliminate lunch. I lost a few more pounds. We had a mild winter and an early spring so I was able to start walking. I lost a few more pounds. Did I mention that I wasn’t eating lunch? Yes, I was starving myself during the day to eat whatever I wanted at night and walking. The results? Well at 6 months I had lost a total of 14 lbs. (No, I did not invert the numbers.) Fourteen pounds. Obviously this method did not get me skinny by summer.
Let’s back up a bit. In February I started working with a group of women business owners to discuss content marketing at monthly roundtables. This is where I met Pamela Brown and learned about her business: A Balanced Weigh. I remember the first time we met. All the women went around the room introducing themselves and their businesses. Pam said she owned a weight loss center and was passionate about working with people to help them reach and maintain their weight goals by changing their relationship with food. I remember scanning the room to see if I was the heaviest in the room (and I think I was), and if everyone was looking at me while she talked. I also remember thinking “yeah right, another diet…”
Part of the content marketing lesson included each business owner writing and sharing their brand story. Pam’s story revealed why she was so passionate about helping others. She knew first-hand what it was like to be overweight. Her story shared the struggles of how her excess weight affected so many parts of her life including being a mom. Her story hit a raw nerve with me. As I stated earlier, I didn’t think I let my self esteem take too much of a hit due to my weight, but really I wasn’t living my life to its fullest. There were plenty of parties or activities that I wouldn’t attend or couldn’t do because of my weight. I realized I was avoiding social functions so people wouldn’t get to see how big I had gotten and I was slowly closing myself in. That’s when I decided that it was time.
At the end of our May meeting I told Pam that I was giving myself a few more weeks to diet on my own and if I was not seeing success then I was going to come see her. I think we both knew at that moment that I was going to become a client, but Pam played it coy wished me success and said “anytime you want to meet let me know.” We met for our June roundtable and I told her I wanted an appointment.
I met with Pam at her West Hartford office on June 27, 2016. I had my initial weight consultation on her “magic scale.” The scale breaks out your weight into various categories including water weight, lean muscle mass and fat etc. Not surprising, my results were awful. Pam carefully reviewed my results with me. She never made me feel bad or like a failure. She was very kind but honest, “You are not healthy.” She discussed how her plan is not about the number of pounds, but the overall health and how there are multiple components to the diet including maintenance, which is where I have failed every time before. I was sold and immediately signed the papers to start her plan. I purchased the foods I needed from her (which are delicious) and headed to the grocery store for the rest. I started my new diet the next morning on Tuesday, June 28, 2016.
Fast forward to September 16, 2016. I am not hungry. I have tons of energy. I am not exercising like a mad woman. It has been just over 11 weeks and I am down 30.5 lbs (with the majority of those pounds being fat loss.) My BMI has improved and I feel and look so much better. I still have a long way to go, but I feel so proud of myself and I actually look forward to getting on the magic scale at my weekly weigh-ins. Just like any other plan it does take personal willpower to stay on track, but this program does make it easier. This time I am keeping my promises. I will share more of my journey as I continue down this path, but for now my parting words are if any of this resonated with you, please reach out to Pam. Back to the Success Stories